simple life

For the first time  sharing this beautiful scene with someone else Leaving an unforgettable moment Spending the precious time  even for a while Maybe there will be no next time Both of them  will not be forgotten InshaAllah Going through these days Leaving more memories to be remembered ^_^

Maybe the time has not come yet, Maybe there should be more patience and acceptance, Alhamdulillah (Praise be to Allah) for giving other companies, When they are needed, Even just for a while, It's enough. Maybe He had answered the prayers, And He knew what's the best, As He loves whoever who ask from Him and tawakal Let's be thankful. :) Rely everything on Him as He is The One and Only.

30th April 2012 amazed by the moonlight and shining stars wishing you were here, sharing this incredible scenery in the center of this green grass lying and thanking Him for this amazing gift pray that we'll have more time to enjoy this beautiful moment but if only if you were here.

Unhappiness, worries overwhelmed Unexpected, unpredictable Hope it can be wiped away, thrown far beyond the skies So it can't be reach nor reveal In some circumstances It may be discovered Whether willingly or not It may come once again Innocently, uninvited It's hard to let go Even struggling with so much effort It's the nature of ordinary human being Can't be disobeyed Even it is tempting The usual thing is not always right! With own stand and perceptions Just stick with the decision Though sometimes it's hard But with the will of Allah Everything will be alright! :)

Silence may be a burden Hard to tell and hard to be kept Keeping it alone May cause miserableness Fighting, screaming from inside Resent with own weaknesses Too easy to be melt away Just like the boats at the sea, not hard to be led astray Reflecting the big fake smiles Hiding all the tears, screams, worries Wishing they can be wiped away Just by one decision One action Innocently thought it is simple as ABC The urge to tell the truth and keep it tightly inside Just make it more complicated There is no solution Decision can't be made When the truth is hidden The answer should be seek from Him who knows everything!

I don't know what I feel How I should react What should I do This is very complicated for me to handle I'm barely 19 I need more time more knowledge more experience I need to be mature prepared physically and mentally The decision is in my hand There's no need to rush Just go with the flow Keep working, struggling Without giving up Make du'a Just tawakal I'm screaming, rebelling inside though at the same time I know what's right, what's crucial With all the responsibilities, expectations I should not be greedy, selfish There's only one focus One mission Along the journey May He bless me Always, without fail

Whenever I see your face, my heart thumps, I can't help it cause it is an involuntary reaction. Please smile more often since I like to see your smile. Everyday I will fight the urge to look at you even from far, since it is hard for me to look straight into your eyes. I hope you feel lucky to be the one who attracts my attention, although even me doesn't know the actual reason. Let's just say that you have the 'factors'. Nobody's perfect,  even myself. Of course there are some characters in you that I will resist. But eventually, I should judge myself before doing the same thing to someone else. This can't keep happening anymore! I told myself. It is not me who can decide. No one knows what will happen next, except Him. I'll just let him to guide my path, along the way of this very short journey. I'm looking forward for another path, the eternal one that each and everyone of us should be ready for. I hope I have enough strength to

today is my emo day, so what? do i have to act and pretend? being hypocrite and not being myself? everyone is not perfect, i should bear in mind. my body is here but my soul is flying, my mind and body feel like it is hard to intertwine. sorry my dear friends.. this has nothing to do with you or anyone else. it is ME who really wants some space to recap all my memories; good or bad, happy or sad. sometimes i need some space for myself, to reflect what i've done. this is the time when i would be thankful with all that i have, the never ending gifts and blessings from Him. this is the moment when i'll try to stop the world and time from ticking, ignoring all the things happening around me, neglecting people surrounding me and just talk to myself, calm myself and try to find some peace as if i'm the only one who lives in this world. i wish i could do that, disappearing everyone with just one blink. BUT in the end, i realize, just who am i to do that. He is th